Sunday, December 26, 2010

Happenings of the Heart

Sometimes life deals a heavy hand and when it comes on Christmas Eve, it's especially bad. I write this with a very heavy heart and over the past two days, I've probably cried five or six hours total. Life is certainly not a bed of roses or fair and it's really hard sometimes. This is one of those times where I feel completely broken and so afraid that I might not recover.

To compound the personal problems, our computer was eaten alive by a virus on Christmas Eve and I permanently lost my favourites list which pretty much took a lifetime to build. We have an external backup drive but that wasn't on it. I couldn't help but shed some more tears over that. If you've ever sent me links to cool sites or tutorials, please feel free to send them again because I will probably never be able to find them otherwise.

I want to thank Lexy and Lindsey for the Christmas cards they sent! I also want to wish dear Smita a very happy birthday tomorrow!! I had sent her a huge package containing many things unavailable to her like acrylic blocks, clear stamp sets, kraft paper and felt die cuts only to have most of the contents stolen by her morally questionable mailman. The birthday card wasn't even spared if you can believe that.

Even though I was dealing with my own problems, I tried to make it a great Christmas for my son. He loved his toys and I have a lot of pictures of him smiling when he ripped open his gifts to see that Santa brought him everything he wanted. A few more gifts will arrive on New Year's Eve when the in-laws arrive for a short visit.

I will probably be blogging a little less in the New Year just to try and recover from all that's going on. I appreciate all of your friendships and look forward to sunny days ahead.

26 comments:

Monika Wright said...

wishing you a bit of peace and calm in the New Year

Barbara said...

I could have written this post myself Emily. I am very sorry for what you are going through and I hope that the new year brings you peace. You are in my thoughts.
Barbara

Lynn said...

Emily, I am so sorry to hear this. I will certainly be sending thoughts and prayers to you that everything works out for you. Wish I was closer so that I could give you a big hug.

melissac said...

Emily, I am sorry you are going through such difficult times. I will keep you in my prayers!!

Meg said...

Life sucks sometimes. Sending you healing thoughts.

Angela said...

You are loved, my dear Em...we're thinking of you!

Handmade Creations by Stephanie said...

Emily, I hope that everything is ok I am so sorry that you are going through some personal stuff. I know I have been there these past few months it feels like the bad news will never end and You wonder how much more you can take it's not easy and I always think that I just have to be strong for my kids and that's really what gets me through it.
Just know that I am thinking of you!!!
Hugs!!!

mustavcoffee said...

Oh Emily, I'm so sorry you're having a hard time, my thoughts go out to you, Christmas can be a difficult time without personal problems. I do hope that things will be better for you soon.
What a shame about your computer and favorites list, I'd be sad if I lost mine too.
Sending a great big hug and positive vibes over to you:0) xx

Jen Carter said...

Oh Emily! I am so sorry for your hard time! I hope that this new year will bring you peace and that you will have strength to make it each and every day!

Karen B. said...

Thinking of you, Emily.

~amy~ said...

Oh Emily....I'm soooooo sorry that you are going through a rough patch....I'm sending you huge amounts of good ju-ju....hang in there girlie....

Julie said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you Emily! I always enjoy your beautiful cards and projects and I'm sorry to hear you're going through such a sad time :(

Hoping the New Year will bring with it some Happiness for you!

Scrapcollectr said...

So sorry to hear you're suffering.... The Internet is a wonderful place for making new friends but is lacking when it comes to comforting one. Here's a virtual ((((hug)))) and hope that the new year will bring you peace and strength.... *smile*

Cookie said...

Emily,
I am sorry to hear of your hardships...I hope the New Year brings you wonderful things my friend...Thinking of you and sending out cyber hugs! Cookie

Kirsty Vittetoe said...

Sorry to hear what you have been going through Emily! Hope everything works out for you the rest of the year and the new year ahead.
Sending you cyber hugs........ be strong, held your chin up, you will be fine!

Tejal said...

I really don't know what to say, but just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and will be thinking of you a lot. Sending big warm hugs, and praying that the new year brings peace, strength and loads of love.
Be strong girl!!

Wendy ten Hove said...

Hello Emily,
I'm very sorry to hear you are going through such a rough time.... I hope all will be better for you soon. I am wishing you all the best and hope things will turn out for the better for you!
Huge hugs, Wendy

Christi Snow said...

((((hugs)))) and good thoughts for you as we head into the New Year....

Emily (stampingout on SCS) said...

So sorry you are going through hard times right now, Emily. You will be in my heart and prayers.

Great big {{{{{HUGS}}}}}!

wendyp said...

oh Emily, I'm so sorry you're having such a difficult time right now. Sending you lots of cyber hugs! ((hugs))

Alice Wertz said...

so sorry to hear that you are going through a hard time. sending you big big hugs, Emily...

dahlhousedesigns said...

I am sorry I didn't see this until today. Lots of love sent your way. I wish you strength as you deal with your current struggles and to do what you must to deal. May 2011 be a year of healing leading to joy!

I'll be keeping you in my thoughts!

hugs,
lisa a.

Michelle Single said...

I'm sorry I am behind on my google reader and didn't see this until today. I know what it's like to be dealt a bad hand. Try to channel your bad thoughts into something positive. Helping a charity helped me get thru. Good luck to you!!!

lynn said...

emily, i'm behind and trying to catch up from xmas, just read this. i'm so sorry and wish the new year will bring you comfort and happier days:)

Donna said...

big hugs! I hope you're doing better now. I was so sad too for a few reasons, and one was a phone call I got from my older sister who had to put her sweet dog Kiki to sleep because of a tumor on her neck. I just crocheted a little dog for her in her honor.

Sunghee said...

so sorry Em~! I'll be a better friend this year. HUGS~~~~!!!